"Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Staring straight back at me?
...Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?"
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?"
I was watching American Idol last night and heard one of the contestants sing "Reflection." I heard those lyrics and they moved something inside of me.
I didn't cry.
It didn't take my breath away.
It just put a little something in me that said,
"Hey, you're listening to this for a reason!"
I remember feeling like I was drowning in my thoughts as I was growing up.
{okay, truthfully, even last night...}
Always looking back, never forward.
Always seeking approval...being the person everyone else wanted me to be.
{or I thought they wanted me to be...}
And I believed I had done a good job at it, too.
But the person I thought I was portraying to everyone wasn't really coming through or who they saw.
Ironically, because I was always trying to be a "good girl",
I was seen as the rebel....one of the black sheep in the perfect flock.
I think I still feel like that.
Seeking approval.
The "Am I Good Enough?" stuff.
So those lyrics come up and that thought comes to my head...
And then I think,
"It's just too hard, though. I've been doing this all my life."
Well, maybe it's time to stop.
No, not maybe.
6 comments:
Thanks for linking up! I still struggle sometimes with being who I am versus who everyone thinks I am. I feel like I have one image to the public, but that image isn't a true reflection of who I am. xoxo
** there is nothing more beautiful and true as the REAL you!!!! our Jesus made you ONE OF A KIND, girlfriend!!! :) Let that sparkle shine thru!!!
Good for you for making that decision! The cool thing is, people will probably appreciate you even more when you're just you.
I love that you're you. And i love that i can be me around you, too. No judgement, no nothing. Just unconditional love.
I hear you girl~ I have gotten to the point, where if they dont accept me, then I dont want to be accepted. Life is too short. I hope you have a beauitful thursday!
I've been struggling with the real me lately as well. It's a tough thing to find, accept, and then portray but I know it's worth it. I know we can both do it. :)
Happy Friday!
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