Friday, May 18, 2012

letter writin' and coffee sippin'

Happy Day to You, My Loveys!
I just saw this on  pinterest this morning:

Wow, right?
What a great idea, too.  Write a letter to the ones who have discouraged you, made you feel like you weren't worthy...
So, here's what I thought we could do.... 
Grab some coffee. 
Get some paper and a pen (or open up a Word doc...) and let's do this...
I'll write a letter and you can, too.
Or just look on while I write mine...maybe that'll encourage you to do it for yourself one day.

Dear You Know Who You Are,
Remember when I was little and I was your favorite? When you would take me out, just the two of us?  When you would show me off to all your friends?  When you would buy me pretty ruffly dresses and make me feel like a princess?  Remember when you stopped doing that?  Do you remember why?
How about when you told me that it was my fault?  Do you recall telling me that if I hadn't been so seductive then it wouldn't have happened?  Do you remember how old I was?  Did you really believe what you were saying or was it so you would feel better?
Why all these questions, you wonder...
You had me in the palm of your hand.  You could've been there to protect me.  You could have protected all of us. I'm writing you this because I want to tell you that I'm free of you and the picture you have in your sick head of me.
I am a mother now.  The best mother!
But I look to the future - many many years from now - when I'm a grandmother, I won't be like you.
I'll protect my granddaughter.
I'll put her so high up a pedestal that no one could touch her.
And if someone tried {even if it's him} to hurt my granddaughter or anyone else for that matter- I will stand by her side.  I will take her side.  I will believe her.  I will never doubt her.
Never his....I would never believe his lies.
Yeah so, you taught me something.
And I thank you.
You taught me how to not be you.
Your Granddaughter

Um, I didn't know that was on my heart this morning.
Thanks for looking on as I wrote that.  Thanks for drinking that cup of coffee and just sitting there, being there for me.
I feel a little bit more free...a little more "not tense"....I feel good.
Maybe, not now but soon, you can do that for yourself.
And when you do, I'll be there right by your side...
sitting there, being there for you.
Have a wonderful weekend, you.
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Mrs. White said...

This was a really touching and powerful letter. I wanted to let you know it inspired me to write my own. And also, thank you, for having the courage to write it in the first place. :)

Kenya G. Johnson said...

Wow Nay. It's been a while since a post brought tears to my eyes and a lump in my throat that the coffee won't go down. What you poured out was very real and touching. I'm willing to bet a Venti Caramel Macchiato that you would have been a great mother anyway!

There are none so blind as those who will not see.

((hugs)) from the east coast.

And a light hearted side note: love your blog banner!

Lissa @ The Looking Glass said...

i love your blog. it's so refreshing to find believers on the internet :) found you via the link up! xo

Mamasita said...

YOU. GO. GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You hold your beautiful head high and know that you are in charge of YOU and you ARE an amazing, beautiful, COURAGEOUS woman, wife, mother! Nobody messes with YOU.... NOBODY!
Praise the LORD!!!!!!!!

rororoyourboat710 said...

brought tears to my eyes. you ARE a wonderful awesome friend...and will be the best GRANDMOMMY to your little loved ones... te amo mucho, tita!

Kristen Seuberling said...

There are no words to describe how proud I am to keep company with such a strong woman. Never doubt yourself. You are incredible.

SerenSojo71 (Antoinette Dickson) said...

One of the things that I love most about writing & being a writer is that the process is so cathartic. Wounds are allowed to heal that we forgot ever existed. Having written such a letter or two myself (not to mention, countless poems), I know the power of letting go in this manner. I hope that others will read this post & do the same. Thank you for your transparency, Nay!

Courtney said...

Great letter. Powerful. Poignant.

Tonya said...

I am visiting from BBN and am your newest follower. Love your honestly and courage in your letter. I look forward to following your blog. :)

Helen said...

I definitely need to write one of these letters! I need to join up with Friday Letters too. I've been meaning to do it. x

Ashley Slater said...

wow, I don't even have any words for that. You are strong and amazing and such a beautiful example of being made new in Christ! Your letter touched me and inspired me this morning and I am so grateful you were brave enough to post this! Thanks for linking up with me this week!


Nicole said...

" rororoyourboat710 said...
brought tears to my eyes. you ARE a wonderful awesome friend...and will be the best GRANDMOMMY to your little loved ones... te amo mucho, tita!"

AND you're one of my most favoritest aunts!!! i love reading your posts. You really do inspire me. love you and miss you guys!